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“I know surprising two journal entries in one day..but there is someone I love dearly who is in pain. And im not there to be with her and help her out. This entry is all for you riddle. I know that when you end up getting sick we joke about it and I say something like you need to be put in a bubble so that you cannot get sick anymore and we laugh. But latter on I start to think more clearly and realize that you’ve been getting sick a lot more lately. I mean really sick. This is going to be what almost three weeks now? When I call you today I hope you’ll be better. I hate this feeling. Im not there for my best friend and it hurts so damn much. If anything were to happen to riddle I will tell you this. My heart would completely shatter to peaces and slowly die. That something how someone would feel about someone else that they really love right? Well this is our friendship and when you love a friend it’s a bond that is somewhat set for your friendship. I remember the first time we might. You thought I was some kind of bully because I always looked serious. But then one day you mentioned something that sparked my interest. We both started talking more and then soon became best friends. Even though I’d always get into trouble you’d stay with me no matter what. And whenever something upset you I’d stay at your side till you were feeling more better. There was a time when the teachers were making us site and watch their stupid volley ball game and believe me the rest of us had to go home since school was ending but they wouldn’t let us. Some people were walking away anyways and when riddle tried to leave one of the teachers stopped her and yelled at her. Other people were leaving and she really had to get home but they made her site and watch the stupid game. There was this girl who was like our friend who snuck away everyone else fallowed her and wouldn’t stay with riddle but I did. She was thankful for that and we sat by each other’s side till the whole thing was over. Then every day I’d always walk her home and or up to the point were her mom would be waiting to pick her up. we didn’t live far from each other so it wasn’t a problem. Even if she did live far I would still walk her home just to make sure she was safe. I was always protective of riddle and even to this day I still am. There was a time when she moved away and we both were sad as hell. I still have all of the letters that she would send me put away nice, safe and new looking. Sometimes I even pull them out and read them over. Then there was a time when she told me over the phone that she was moving back to the area. It was the best news I’ve gotten but then again I had some bad news. I was moving away. I can tell you she was not happy at all. And every time one of us moved we’d give each other our phone numbers right when we found out what it would be. I haven’t seen her in 8 years in yet we still would keep in touch and always talk on the phone. A few months ago I went back there and we set up a time and day to were we can finally see one another after all this time. You called out my name and when I turned around you had a smile forming on your face. Heh I’ve always liked her smile its always bright and cheery. Even though im not the huggy hug type with my friends I still hugged you and we stayed like that for a long time. When I was done hugging you still didn’t want to let me go. when I said uhh ok I’d like to breath now you just laughed and said no not yet I want to let it last who knows when I’ll get to see you again. I miss her so damn much like a puppy would its favorite playmate. When im away from riddle I get depressed from time to time because Its always a good feeling to be around her and we always have fun. She looked pretty when she stood by the small pound in her yard the sun light hit her just right since it was early morning. When I talk to her it feels like I’m in some sort of heaven because she always sounds cheery even when she’s got a fever of some kind. And when I say do you want me to let you go so that you can rest? She’d always say no I want to talk to you…I enjoy talking to you…and almost every time you’d say I love you..in some kind of lingering tone or in a cutesy playful one. But whenever we say good-bye you say it again. I love you in that same soft tone. And I’d always answer back the same. When I called last week she was sick again…and of course I pull out you need to be put in a bubble joke but that still doesn’t help from stopping me not worrying…we made a promise to each other. That one day when I can run from the hell that I live in we’d be together. Side by side and look out for one another like we did when we were kids. Even as I type this tears are streaming down my face because im not there at her side to help her out threw her sickness. I promised that we’d be room mates some day. We both gave our word on that and I’m trying my hardest to make it happen. There are a lot of obstacles being thrown at me and even though there hard ones I still barley manage to get threw…and im doing it all for her. For riddle. My best friend, my story buddy, my princess. Never will I not un include you in things no matter what im doing I always think of her because if it hadn’t been for her I wouldn’t be here today. I would have given up on life In general and would be some bitter a** person rotting in jail or even dead. I even made some sort of poem or song for her I’ll have to go find it. Threw it all im thanking her for everything. For being my princess and my shoulder Angel. If anything happened to her I’d die on the spot. She means so damn much to me..I love her dearly and shells always have that special spot in what’s left of my heart. shell always have that one smile, that one hug, that one everything that I resurve for people close to me. and shell never loos it no matter what."