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ok, well my friends are great. unfortunately one's moving across the world. and i've just realized how im being a pretty sucky friend. i'm hurting people around me unintentionally. well, i have this one friend that kept getting upset when we'd do things without her. we wouldn't plan on them it would just sort of happen as a coincidence and then she'd get really upset. we would try to call her to explain it was just a coincidence and then she'd hang up on us or something immature like that. that was beginning to bug me so i decided to lay off for a while. i didn't want to be involved in "fourth grade fights". i've grown up and i didn't want to deal with that. As i began to just lay off and not bug her, it suddenly hit me that my other friend was moving really soon. i felt like i was running out of time and wanted to get closer with her. as i was doing this i was slowly pushing everyone else away unintentionally. Now i've noticed that people think i dont like them or something, which is not it at all. i feel terrible for giving everyone this message, and it's not true! it just seems like my friends are slowly breaking up and as much as i tell people that it's natural for everyone to go our seperate ways, i don't want to believe it. I dont want to lose any friends or make anyone mad. i really don't. with my friend getting all upset and us getting into lame fights, and me getting closer to my other friend i seemed to be giving everyone the impression that i don't like them. That's not it at all and i just want to make sure that everyone knows that.