I did get to see him. I saw him last night. I called him from my cousins house out of town and I told him when I was coming back and he said to call him then and he would come by. It was a heart wrecking moment. But it rocked. He came over, talked, I got to see his bro's tattoo he had just gotten the day before and he talked like he wasnt leaving. But then it hit me that he was really leaving the next day. We did pushups together and talked. Then the goodbye hug was great. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he held me tight and picked me up a bit. I didnt look back. I couldnt. I saw him today though, at school, while he was getting ready to leave. I gave him a hug and it was quick and friendly. And that was the last time I saw him. Dearest me, he is really gone. I'm trying to refrain from crying my heart out for him yet again. Dearest me, I'm not going to see him anymore. I'm trying to refrain from crying my heart out for him yet again. Because I'm in love with that perfect jerk and nothing is going to change my feeling.
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