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In the depths of it all you always have that single state of mind... the one that sends you into your own world that only you would ever understand... the one that is a sub-concouse state of mind, but concouse at the same time... you hear everything around you, but disregard it... you see things but forget them in an instant... this state of mind is where you bring foward you greatest of ideas... an array of inner colors that are ultra violet to others but in perfect sinc with yourself... that state of mind can be in obliviose silence, or filled with so many sounds and harmonies there is never a silent moment... this state of mind is where you go to be youself... to understand yourself... to hear yourself when all you need is to listen.... it tells you your true inner thoughts... things you never knew you could think of... this state of mind listens... it speaks without words.... it is where i find myself often without noticing... though sometimes i do notice... it is here my true words flow freely amongst me... and in some cases, it flows through me and out of my fingertips to a pencil on paper... or the keys on a computer keyboard... i write stories that evolve in that state of mind and shape into something beyond what i have experanced.... it evolves into just a few paragraphs about what i really think about... my mind has so many colors and so many sounds... my mind has absolute black and the silence of the dead... it works in both healping and destroying... it twists constantly; sometimes into something beautiful, sometimes into something too horrid for words... nobody but me can understand what any of it means in my mind... sometimes i let it go... and then there are times when i keep it within myself, not wanting to relese it to others... not for fear of judgement, but for my own reasons... but.... you can never truely see these things within youself until you are ready to see... you can never hear these sounds until you are ready to hear.... and nobody can do it for you... at first, you might not understand what the state of mind is...
It is a gateway to your true self