well, it is pretty early for my to be writing, but I accidentally got up to go to school 40 minutes early stressed . now I can't get back to sleep, so i figured that I might as well b***h and moan to the computer instead of my sister. I would have gone back to sleep, but I already have my contacts in and it really hurts to sleep in them. I can't believe that my friend can sleep with them in for like a week.
my love life is as it always is, not there. I wish that I wasn't so stubborn about these things. if I was anyother girl, I could just tell him that I like him and wait for the rejection. but NO! I have to be one of the most stubborn people that I know (or at least I should hope so). I treat him like I treat all the guys that I know really closely. I kind of bully him and make fun of him. he does the same to me, so it isn't like I just bully him relentlessly, I just pick on him. is there any chance that he might think that I like him, even just as a friend? I just really hope that he doesn't think that I hate him, because I don't. in fact, he has to eb the best friend that I've had in a really long time. oh well.
there are probably plenty of guys that would go out with me if I asked them to, but I'm really picky about men. I'm not really a snob who has to have the most attractive man in the school, but I really want a guy who is easy to talk to and is funny, has a good personality... the list goes on.
well, my coach just told me that there is a competition in New Mexico this wseeked, and I told him that I was going, but I'm starting to rethink it. I haven't had a weekend at home for a month now (and I'm serious, really)and I thought that I should get together with my friend. not to mention, I'm getting worried that this other girl is going to wheasle her way into our friendship. stressed I talked about her earlier. I'm just waiting for her to make a mistake and then I'm going to pounce on her like a half starved vulture. god I just hatre her so much, just writing about her is making my blood boil. maybe I will use my skills of intimidation to drive her out of the school mercilously. twisted she's going to regret the day that she passed into my territory.
wink anyway, I'm getting hungry, so I'm going to go and eay my breakfast. ta ta for now! 3nodding
 Megami Tsuruko · Wed Oct 20, 2004 @ 02:47pm · 0 Comments |
