this girl showed up at fencing again. she is the most repulsive girl ever. she just gets anywhere she wants by sleeping with every guy that she comes upon. she is a stupid, ugly whore and I can't stand her because every 6 months she wanders into fencing and acts like she was never gone. I just hate her so much scream . it's pretty fun when she isn't there because the boys and I all rip on her about her slutty lifestyle.
I can't tell if the guys are nice to her when she comes around again because they are afriad of her or because they want to get laid. it really bothers me and I don't really know why. I guess that it isn't fair for me to lay claims on the boys at fencing, but they deserve way better than me and way way better than a girl who will probably have an STD named after her in the future.
what also makes me sad is that one of my good friends from fencing is leaving and I probably won't see him for a really long time (like until June). he has always been there for me. I guess that it is true what they say about not realizing how important someone is to you until they are gone. I never reallly felt more for him that a friend would (though he is really unbelievably hot), but now that he is going to be gone, I feel the pain that you get when you lose someone like a lover.
Other than missing him I am also taking over his space a little. he used to have a locker on the fencing floor and now I'm taking the locker over. maybe I feel bad about taking over his space or something, but he's just one of those people that was always there, and now that he's going to be gone, I just don't know how to react. he wrote a letter to all of us that said that the one who takes over his locker (he didn't know that it would be me) has to leave room for a picture of Natalie Portman inside of it. that was another great thing about him. he was the sweetest of guys and now he's gone. so I'm going to find the best picture of Natalie Portman that I can and if he ever does come back, he'll see how much I miss him.
I guess that I've always had a little of a crush on him, and I'm just realizing it now that he is leaving. I guess that it wouldn't have mattered anyway because I never would have acted on it, but it is kind of wierd for me to just figure out that I had a crush. I'm usually so open to myself about things like that.
anyway, if anyone is reading this, I'd love to hear what you think.
 Megami Tsuruko · Thu Mar 17, 2005 @ 06:22am · 0 Comments |
