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Miserable victim? - Feel free to say what you wish. Even though I have a feeling its something along the lines of "you're a ******** moron". But you know what, I am being a moron. For feeling the way I do.
Normally I can pick up the emotions of others. But being so blind in my own, I made a fatal mistake of hurting someone else with my feigned happiness. She took the chance while I sat here contemplating. - Though she had the advantage all along. She already knew how she felt, whereas I was only starting to do so.
I'm obviously in the wrong in this whole fiasco. I wanted to do something for myself, and try to pull myself out of my blackhole. She took the chance, knowing I would do this - and did it herself. She did what any stable-minded person would do in these circumstances; take away the other person's glory.
If I was in her position, I probably would have done the same thing. But I
m always on the short end of the stick.
But you know what, hangover is gone, I had time to think about this and I've made up my mind. I'm going to write a note.
A brief note explaining a few things, but more importantly extending the arm of friendship to the person I hold feelings for still. I will say I had or have feelings for him, because I'm tired of holding back or lying. I know it is useless to say "lets date" so I won't even go into that. I see more promise in friendship than anything else. And to have someone dislike me, thats not cool.
I'm too scared to say this to his face, so I'm going to have to do it in a letter. The events of yesterday have made it hard as ******** for me to do a face to face conforntation. Hopefully I can get it all down on paper.
I'm not trying to ruin my friend's chances. But if I stew around on my own emotions, I'm going to go down the road my friend cetacea did. Always "what if" and "why". There will be no "what ifs" after this letter. If he chooses not to be my friend, then I know. Then I can move on without any regret for not saying anything. Because if he doesn't wish to even be my friend, then any romantic prospects are obviously shut to me.
Now I need to ask one of my friends for a huge favor.
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What happened to your hair!