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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! I wish I could just torch every hideously ugly piece of clothing that my mother buys!!! She has this mentality that "Oh I know it's not your usual style, but you can wear it around the house."

Grrr.... I never wear anything around the house that I would not wear in public. I know I don't have the best style & that I don't dress girly (my mom actually told me that if I didn't dress girly people would think I was a dyke), but I like how I dress! I'll buy my own clothes. I don't want anyone else to purchase anything for me unless it is a pair of plain black pants. Even that seems to be out of my family's capability to buy for me, as they'll buy these hideous cotton weave pants that just scream "LOOK AT ME!!! I WEIGHT 250 LBS & THESE PANTS WILL SHOW OFF EVERY SINGLE BIT OF TOKYOGIRL'S a** TO IT'S MAXIMUM!!! TAKE A GOOD LOOK BECAUSE NEXT WEEK SHE'S GOING TO JOIN A SIDESHOW AS THE FAT LADY!!!!"

I just realized that I don't use a single piece of clothing in my closet because it's full of clothes that my mom bought me & said "Oh, I thought that you could wear this to work. Maybe you could just wear it around the house." I don't wear them & I don't want to. When I tried to get rid of stuff in the past my mom would give me this huge guilt trip about getting rid of it. "I/your grandmother/your aunt/the bum on the corner bought you that for christmas/your birthday/on sale. You just got it last month/last year/in 800B.C.!" Sheesh. I want to get rid of all the stuff I don't use. I'm not going to use it again & if I lose enough weight to fit in it I'm going to buy all new clothes! I also hate wearing stuff from thrift stores. They're filthy & most often they're outdated & tacky. (At least the plus size stuff is.) If I was a 50-80 year old woman I'd be in hog heaven, but I'm not. I want to wear what I like & what I like is not likely to be found at the thrift store.