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So my mom really think this is serious. This is my senior year and I should be determined! Sadly I don't care at all, I just wanna pass I don't give a rats a** about walking down the graduation ceremony bull crap, I hate people watching me...

So my mom thinks I won't be able to see what she wants, so shes going to take me to talk to a doctor so we can see if I can get some of that additively strong prescription drugs. Its called Adderall and Adderall is a pharmaceutical psychostimulant comprised of mixed amphetamine salts that is primarily used to treat attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder and narcolepsy. Adderall has also been used to successfully treat severe cases of treatment-resistant depression. It is a Schedule II controlled substance, meaning that it has been deemed to have a high potential for abuse and addiction despite genuine medical uses. (The bold is the one my mom thinks I have)

Side effects in children
* decreased appetite
* difficulty falling asleep
* stomachache
* emotional lability

Side effects in adolescents

* loss of appetite
* difficulty falling asleep
* headache
* stomachache
* weight loss
* irritability while "coming down"

Side effects in adults

* dry mouth
* loss of appetite
* difficulty falling asleep
* headache
* weight loss

Side effects in overdose

* death (how did I know that was there? xd )
* heart valve damage[citation needed]

These symptoms require immediate medical assistance:

* symptoms of tourettism
* aggression
* symptoms of depression
* seizures or abnormal EEGs
* high blood pressure
* swelling of hands/feet/ankles (notice for example finger tips getting numb)
* delusions
* sweating
* vomiting
* Dehydration
* Unexplained muscle pain

I told myself that death by this drug won't scare me, it only scares me if I have sexual problems xd

So when I talk to the doc I will be truthful and I will listen to instructions (I guess) but if I get addicted and die from this then I don't know.....I guess I will just watch over you all, but remember that quote "Heaven is Hell without you" yeah it will be like that (but I will most likely be in Hell) xp

Thats if I do have to take the drug, I would like to see what it is like to actually be focused then to daydream about certain people rolleyes

If I do go to heaven, I am going to watch some of you shower and stuff wink heart