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the man behind the iron mask
I may seem happy at times but I am not really I have a side of me that is torn and broken, its almost dead and its because of people that have ruined my life.....its because of stupid mother ******** a** holes that push me away and I am sorry for the cursing but I have all but died inside these people make me want to die but I wear an iron mask to mask the pain that they have dealt to me....my life is rather happy compared to some people I know but I dont care right now I just want to leave this world and leave those who have pushed me away one way or another my pain and feeling are intense, if I were to be cut for every time I was rejected I would have been dead along time ago....I feel sad all the time because my wounds are always opened by those who dont understand I remember when I was happy and now despise myself that I cant be that way again...not ever...there is always someone to open my wounds wether intentional or not....I hate everyone and everything sometimes that I would end my life but I cant do such a thing for I am not taking the cowards way out there are so many people that would tend my wounds and say that everything is ok.....and I miss those people that it hurts my very soul....some say your just faking your deppression I say ******** off cause you dont know me you dont know my whole story the pain I felt my heart ache....and I dont care to tell you it either I dont want to drag you down with me....I just wanna scream I wanna scream until my lungs empty out entirly....I have repressed so much. its building up so much that its making it hard to think its eating me away....yes I am crying while I write this......but I dont want your pity nor do I want your snide remarkes....I have lost all faith in people and lastly I wish those who have hurt me would go away....im not in the mood for any more heart ache
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