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NO I AM NOT HAPPY. I JUST PRETEND. HELP ME. it's just what we all dread. the world turns against you, and you try to reason with it. it denies you a passion, a love, and freedom of expression. everything about you is hated by those closest to you. you feel alone, because you are, and yet, it seems EVERYONE feels this way. in other words, i've had it. i'm done. life is pointless. heres why it sucks so bad for me: right now, (and i mean now, because it happened after i typed "dread" wink My Father came in. earlier, i had asked him for permission to cosplay next year as Misaki, and he said he'll think about it. now, he came in saying no, that i would not do so because i would, apparently, look bad and "shouldn't get in this fantasy world more than i already am". yeah, i'm crying right now, silently of course, i'd never want the world to know i was sad, i was always the happy one, childish and stupid, seeming carefree. now, i guess i've had enough. i mean, is anyone there for me? but, don't worry. something like that alone wouldn't get to me. but i guess this next one really did: I've got a girlfriend, or, more correct, i'm finally going out with the one i love most. it's great.....or, it was until, suddenly, she wasn't talking to me.....or....just kinda seemed bored with me or something....you know, less enthusiastic about my presence.i'm not asking her to be overly happy like me, but.....you know......i'd like a little communication, a hug? slap? something? and first day, didn't get me too bad, but that's how this whole weeks been, and i feel like that theres no one really there for me. but was there really anyone there before? it's best not to think of such, and get more depressed. but, i know that no one reads this, but if you do.....can you please comment? i'm begging for anyone now, i'll admit it. i need attention, i've never gone through this before, and i just hate being neglected by the three people i unconditionally love. so, maybe i'm overreacting, but if i am, tell me! even that'll cheer my sorry a up, because i'll see the ordeal as a smaller thing. really, somebody help me. and bad luck go away! xp i love you all! heart sweatdrop**

Posted by: Faust-chan Fri Sep 21, 2007 @ 03:35am

See the Item link? It's what I'm currently questing!

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Commented on: Sat Oct 20, 2007 @ 05:46am


	you people don't comment for s**t.

Commented on: Sun Nov 04, 2007 @ 05:40am


	BALAH

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Commented on: Sun Dec 02, 2007 @ 07:41am


	FREE GOLD.

Commented on: Sun Dec 09, 2007 @ 05:22am


	MORE MONEEEEHHHH!

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Commented on: Wed Dec 12, 2007 @ 01:40am


	BLAH.

Commented on: Sun Dec 16, 2007 @ 08:16am


	BLAH

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Commented on: Tue Dec 18, 2007 @ 02:14am


	LA,

Commented on: Sat Jan 05, 2008 @ 06:20am


	blaaaahhhhh frrreeeee gooooollldddd

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Commented on: Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 02:41am


	freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee gold! blaugh 3nodding 4laugh

Commented on: Sun Mar 02, 2008 @ 08:27am


	D:

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Commented on: Sat Mar 15, 2008 @ 01:17am


	D: nyo?

Commented on: Wed Mar 26, 2008 @ 12:36am


	i need monehs!

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Commented on: Thu Mar 27, 2008 @ 02:34am


	I'd comment about this...but it would only depress me because my mind's been screwed with too much lately. i've actually found myself bargaining with nobody just to get through the day. there's not been a day since '08 started that my eyes were dry. the last time i was truly happy? so long ago that i can't even remember it. and now things are popping up unexpectedly and my life(which had already been shitty to begin with) has started to fall out from underneath me into an infinite black abyss, or, rather, a black hole to never return. i'm starting to lose hope in anything anybody ever called happy(i'm starting to doubt it ever existed in the first place). anybody who says "suicide is never the answer"... ignore them because they are absolutely wrong. sometimes it is the answer. i don't know anybody who's commited suicide, but i have the feeling i will before i finish school. chelsea...you're not alone.

Commented on: Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 02:38am


	hey, kid. i can't deny ya this time, you're totally right. but tell me, can you tell of what's wrong? (if you wanna PM it, that's okay too.) a lot of times i feel horrible, because i look at one bad thing and nothing good. many bad things, even. sweatdrop like what was in my post here, i was sad, alone, and at the edge where i just couldn't see anything good in life. being left by somebody who i loved so much...suddenly, without reason. it's an image of hell for me. and i know that, really, it's the same for anyone. eventually, i brushed it off-ignored it even, to let myself love someone again. but enough about me. i wanna help you. humans can be kind and surprisingly understanding creatures when they try, and right now, i'm more than trying. so tell me, what makes you feel this way?

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Commented on: Sun Apr 06, 2008 @ 03:25am


	>.>; everybody says the same thing when i tell them the problem so just ask anybody else what the problem is and they'll tell you cuz i'm sick of explaining this to everybody. I WANT TO DIE. there i said it...

Commented on: Sun Apr 06, 2008 @ 09:43pm


	do not allow death to have it's way, for dying is the goal of who's hurting you.

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Commented on: Wed Apr 09, 2008 @ 02:25am


	-_-; points to her own journal it's no one in particular.

Commented on: Sat May 31, 2008 @ 02:03am


	freeeeee goooooooooooold.

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Commented on: Thu Jul 30, 2009 @ 11:40pm


	You know what? Free phucking gold. That's what. 3nodding

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