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Chain of memories..The Pain of past and Future collide in me
In resent time... I Shinta Urashima have terminated my existance as I was... plain and boring.... I have taken much damage for just a tiny pice of affection from a girl I loved ( not you kitty... I think deep inside me knew it was not meant to be)... currently I am searching for my lost pieces of my shattered heart.... currently I have found pices to restore my heart but I am at a measly .35%.... I lost my emotions since little the only thing I can fell is hate or love... but hatred have dominated me.... if I don't make it out of my berserker breaking point.. I will loose myself to myself.... the darkness in peoples hearts lives in everyone of us... mine has grown much more.... is taking over me... my side that still has controll has helped me a lot... but it will break free... I need love from the woman I see... but I don't even know who she is or where...
oh god help me.... my heart has bleed so much for a compannyon... you created eve for Adam.... so surely there must be one for me as well right?
As long as I have my heart stil in control and my berserker mode on control as well... I will continue my search that has begun.... 10 years ago.... when I discovered my family secrets... dark secrets... all of them are impriisioned in me... witchcraft... sorcery... their anger and resentment towards the people who misjudge us.... all of that accumulated anger of my pasts lives has reached their breaking point... I am afraid I can't hold it much longer.... farewell I hope I can make up for my wrongdoing in the afterlife.... and I hope that every pain and scar I caused might heal with the time... at the year 2010 I shall be gone... to a temple near HOnk kong to learn more of spiritual puroty.. so I might become a better exhorcist than I am now.... i hope this might redeem me






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Amary
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commentCommented on: Sat Oct 23, 2004 @ 10:06pm
That is too bad Shinta. I can relate to what you are saying and I can't really say my way was better, I just shut everything out and created huge walls to stay behind. I wish you well in your quest for happiness.


commentCommented on: Mon Oct 25, 2004 @ 03:57pm
Well, always remember that I'm your friend dude. Also, I know there'll be one for you. 3nodding



Palinor
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Karidys
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commentCommented on: Tue Oct 26, 2004 @ 06:42am
I'm sorry that you are feeling this pain, Shinta. We all feel darkness with in us, but it is always within our power to over come it. I hope that time and love for yourself and others will heal you. I still hope that you will keep in contact with me and Amary. If not, I wish you all the happiness in the world and that you will find the one made for you. I hope for the best for you and I wish you well on your quest to find yourself. Should you need a friend, we are here.


commentCommented on: Wed Oct 27, 2004 @ 09:28pm
that is so beautiful cry



Shadow Kittie O_o
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Spirit_of_Aphrodite
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commentCommented on: Wed Nov 17, 2004 @ 12:04am
thats... beautiful!!! heart heart im always here to be your friend.

~aphrodite

P.S. theres someone out there for everyone. 3nodding


commentCommented on: Thu Feb 17, 2005 @ 06:05am
WoW.... eek And I thought I was deep.........wow eek



OmiTaka
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