It's funny... I can't seem to feel alive anymore. I was at a graduation party Sunday and blurted out my feelings for Zoe. I was surprised that my friends accepted it and actually offered solutions. Yet I know inside that I must do this alone. I've been having trouble smiling. Everything someone says reminds me of her.. And it's not fun. Sometimes I think of her in good ways and I can remember almost everything we've ever talked about. Other times I can only remember the sound of her crying..
I want her back... Zoe, if you're reading this, I was going to wait until I sent your letter, but I'll just put it here.
My Plan:
1. The law states that at 17 I may move out and go wherever I want.
2. I can find a place to stay (Maybe one of your friend's houses) nearby.
3. Of course I'd need money for the trip and such, so I've been working on getting a job. Once I save up enough, I'll set out.
4. I will drop out at the END of my junior year. This way I can finish school there and not worry about things I haven't learned.
That's it.. But you have to promise me you won't move. Or if you do, send me your new address... ^_^ I know it's kinda stalkerish, but I want to be with you. Or at least near you. Or somewhere I can talk to you.
*Sighs.* Well, that's all I have to say for now. I'm going to wander the internet for an hour or two..
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Softly, now..
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