I hate my life so much. My life is either really bad or just plain boring, I don't really want to live anymore. I want to commit suicide, yet I don't. I want to because my life's awful/boring, and it's all my fault. Because I'm a hypocrite, stereotypist, and racist, people don't like me. I always say I just ignore them, but everyone knows I'm lying. I also don't because I have a few special friends that I really care about. What should I do?