So yeah... I've realized I'm totally stupid XD
Just want to be in a relationship again. With who- I have no idea.
Life is just, not really throwing me many options, know?
People at school are just.... eh.... They're shallow and mean and most likely use you for sex and leave.
It's nice being single I do have to admit. But it's bothersome at the same time. I mean you have all this freedom... but sometimes you just want one person.... or many depending on your beliefs- that'll love you for who you are and who you can equally love back.
Yeah, would be nice wouldn't it? But you know, then you have all the pressures and whatnot put on depending on the person you have as your lovey. They could want things really soon when you may want to take things slow or vice versa... its hard finding someone... it really is.
It's kinda like.... you wish you didn't have to deal with the whole picking and choosing process sometimes from how much the loneliness can get to you. But then again, sometimes it's for the best that you- yourself choose your partner instead of maybe a parent.
It's hard to find someone who's not just using you... it's increasingly hard to keep people faithful in this day and age.... So many things can cause heartache... But it's supposed to help you grow, right? But what if there's no one to even help you grow... I feel almost like a catlady at this rate. My life doesn't feel like it's going anywhere, jobs are scarce... cats are numerous... people seem to only want people who are outwardly attractive...
But then again... maybe it wouldn't be so bad being a catlady... people would have a respect/fear of you and leave you alone if you wanted to be left alone... but my loneliness is not one of want but of forced conditions. It sucks. But still, I'd have all those cats to help me feel not so alone... slowly go insane because of no one else to talk to... it's sort of sad but hey, what other options are there for a person such as myself?
Now then, some people would ask, why not try the whole interwebs thing. To that- I say a resounding "Hell no." Why? Because, people lie. And many do it better than others. I'd rather not end up the next slasher case. Point taken? Yeah. Thought so. But just in case... There's also the fact that two people could live on the other side of the country from eachother plan to meet up and never meet. It's sorta pointless. Know?
Anyways that's it for my rant for now.
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