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I have and you know what I am not and I haven't shown to be one. see now you know why I don't want to do things anymore. Quit trying to justify your actions. I have never heard you say you have done anything wrong ever. and next time when you try and insult me try and do it in english.


on a side note I would only do you a favor dear the world is seems to be happy with me and ones that have problems are content. If you have every right to rant and rave then I have the right to. Of course it dosen't because truth and be hold you speak in hypocrisy 1: a feigning to be what one is not or to believe what one does not; especially : the false assumption of an appearance of virtue. quit trying to make your self the vitctum because you screwed up but tina never wants to admit that dose she? she want to be the vitcum and have other people tell dam the other person and make them seem evil dosen't she?

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You haven't been a narcissist? Now don't be a hypocrit, because by God you're being one. Now honestly, when have I said I was the ******** victim? Never have I said anything like that and if you're going to assume such stupid things, I cannot stop you.

You've been guilting people to be Gabby's friend even when we said we were her friend. Time after time you've said "do it for me", "if I'm your friend you'll do it", "for me go the extra mile". Well if that isn't centering around oneself John, I don't know what is. You piss and moan when we don't invite you places, and when we do you're always busy. So shove it. Its you who can't make time for your friends anymore.

I have a right to be upset about what hurts me. And when I do say something I get s**t thrown back at me. And you're usually the one to do it. I should have listened to the others when they said going to you is the worst thing for me. You don't know how to make people feel better, infact you make them feel worse. So just stop, just stop. You have no right to berate me.

And lastly, stop getting on my god damned case. Go piss someone else off for a change.

How can you honestly say that you have "never heard you say you have done anything wrong ever"? All anyone would have to do is read back through her old journal entries. I've never heard her deny when she does something wrong, and honestly, it seems like you're the one more at wrong here. She's right; she has ever right to be upset when something hurts her, and you have no right at all to say otherwise.

Hum, no suprise I get the answers that I did. stare All I got to say to answer these things. [b]To Ray [/b]when you say I act holier then thou I only act because this is the truth. I weight what I have done good with what I have done bad. So what I screw up. I say sorry every time. Religon is not a factor in anything ray. A person is a person no matter what. A religon has nothing to do with a person, just there actions. I am thought a little annoyed your still trying to do things to me since it's not like I have any reason to still hold anything against you. So you have screwed up, you have paid your time and like gaby, I still consider you a friend if you want it to be. Just try not to start things anymore. [b]To everyone[/b] Here's the thing tina has every right to say what she wants but when you have a tamptrum about some boy and you tell a person who hasn't done anything to ******** off, ******** you and I need new friends when you didn't do anything how are you suppost to act about it? You say I'm a narcissist? To tina Tell me wouldn't me telling you I'm worried about you becoming narcissist show that I'm not caring about myself but rather your own welfare. doing everying for my cousins Quiencenda even more then on my shoulders is somthing a self centered person dose? what's intresting is caring about your welfare get's me this s**t. you know why talking to me is bad for your welfare? because everyone else will always try to leave things alone and thus sending you to a crashing end. so what you want me to say things like the others have "she is been wicked and nasty to the people who care about her and then crying that no guy likes her. It's disgusting." like everyone else behind your back? go ahead finding out who said it because every single one of them will say they didn't. since no one would confess somthing like that. [b]To Okugi[/b]. I do ocasionaly in my journal put I screwed up and I'm sorry but I do it in person because the internet dosen't show how sorry a person is. Also to add one dosen't have to deny they just have to change the subject with you a b***h and she get's the job done. Even if she has never denied, she has never said she did anything wrong or has even said a single I'm sorry. Tina with you I outweight the good with the bad. [b]To Tina[/b] you say I give you guilt trip to be with gaby. s**t that's really sad you know trying to say I'm self centered about that, you know why? because what do I get out of it? gaby the one who get's anything out of it. So how am I a narcissist when I do things for other peoples lives tell me that? Also you say I complain about not being invited. I told you things changed after graduation and have you heard me complain about it? lately I have been hanging out or talking to people more being there freinds and not a party buddy. NO nice try tina really since you can't really think of things so you speak of old problems which guess what? I have said sorry to the people who I hurt, who didn't in turn do somthing wrong. ray is right when he says based on what you guys say you arn't gaby's friends and has said it you self when you said "we have no desire to invite her because if we go to a nice resturant and her mother calls. We then have to leave and it ruin things". even after all I said. Look at the free time you have and have you any desire to be around her? no. it's simple really why don't you just tell her the truth how you feel being around her and get it over with instead of having her think she has people that care about her. Also you know what I shouldn't even have to guilt you into hanging around with gaby because you never do. You want me to some how organized her being around because tina dosen't want to do anything of her own free will to help anyone else but her self. Here's the thing, you will only do anything for anyone when they come to you. You rarely ever do you do any random acts of kindness or tried to help some one without them coming to you. I don't know why your trying to argue that not to be true when you yourself has said it in the past. You have claim in your journal that you don't want to care about anyone else and just foucus on your own problems from now on and yet you say you arn't self centered. All you ever want to do is somthing with going out to places, let's go to the beach, let's go to cost co, let's do somthing. it's seems like you have no purpose anymore and you just want to have fun by doing things that cost money if not for you then the one's driving. Well here's the thing since you don't want my help I really don't care anymore and I will say things and if you want to hear it's your choice, just tune it out like any person would. But telling me ******** you for somthing which I did nothing. Unless I have the right to go to your face and tell you randomly all kinds of bad things because I'm mad. It's just not somthing you do. you break so many social rules and it's intresting no matter how many everyone online will always defend you. The reason for it is simple. They don't live throught it. they don't see it so they will always defend you. So yeah seriously take you s**t out on some one else besides the one's that care about you because I'm not the only one you have done this to. You want new friends then go out and in a month we will hear them say what you seem to say. Dosen't matter who I meet they eventualy get tired of me. It's your chosing tina what happens and you don't want to. How can you seriously expect to stay with some one with the way you act. You tell me to find you guys for you which must be a action of me being self centered right? I do find some but there not to your liking. Even the one's that are who like you eventually get put off by your self centeredness which has been said to me. So there you go, it's your choice wiether or not you want to change things. Just stop trying to attack the people who I trying to help you because then they will piss you off till karma is balence again. I guess since I help you alot then we should have a lot of pissing off going on shouldn't we? [size=7]ray just a question? what are you mad at me about still? I have no desire to have anything against you so why are you constently trying to speak bad of me? also yeah I do get offensive about gaby because it's reaction and that's one of the times I over react. which there is no justifcation for. I hope problems between us will end soon ray. like I said again religon has nothing to do with how I react. [/size]

John, I'm not even about to start reading that, because I honestly don't give a damn. You have no right to berate me on how I feel. Period. I have a right to get upset, and to say what I want. You on the other hand say I am doing something so horribly wrong. I'm sorry if how I feel is so horribly wrong. You're the God of the world John, you are always right. I'm wrong, as always. Now remove the stick from your a**, I'm tired of hearing the same bullshit over and over.

You also assume way too much for your own good. You say I don't do random acts of kindness, well John you haven't BEEN AROUND ENOUGH to say a god damned thing. You don't know what I do, and how I do it. I apologize to people all the time. But to you, I DON'T WANT TO. You sit there expecting it the moment someone does something minutely wrong. Thats what I hate the most, you expect things. And when it doesn't happen you get pissy.

there you have it fokes she blames every except herself fokes. you know what one waits and get's I'm never going to say sorry. Keep on beliving you fantisy world tina. Because it's always another persons fault except your own. it's the reason for all your problems. Dosen't matter if everyone sees it and says it because tina never wants to listen. that's the reason s**t happens tina.

You are just sorry because I never apologized to YOU.

You expect it, and get pissed when it does not come. So I don't see the need to apologize to the likes of you.


AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. SPELL CORRECTLY.

Um, actually, I didn't see her blaming anyone in the statements that were referring to, or at all for that matter. And what you directed towards me in your very long (and almost impossible to read) statement had nothing to do with the comment I made. You're just like someone else I'm have problem with at the moment, you don't read or listen to what people say you only make up what you want to hear.

You've got a point there. I had never mentioned anyone in my journal entry that sparked all this. Infact he was never targeted, or even thought about in that entry. It was a mix of emotions that were prematurely created. I vented, thats what happens when I get angry. Hell, I've learned from therapy and anger management to write down how I feel. So I did as I was instructed to do, and it helps. But not when people constantly reprimand you for it.