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Hello guys.
Today was a very silent day for me.
When I got home and ate it felt like I hadn't opened my mouth for like ever.
Right now, I'm okay.
I don't think I should remember this day.
So I'm going to try to use LOVE to over rule it.
Thank you my friends for staying by me.
I really felt like my face was beaten up by someone after lunch.
It felt really swollen.
This morning, in the cafeteria, I was with some people.
One girl said, "I heard she's really funny."
Who ever heard me being funny?
It was odd...((If I act like I'm not paying attention, I actually am.))
And Pervy Sage.
I really hate you right now.
You probably thought I was sad for no reason.
And going around to people saying, "Don't worry she does this all the time."
No I don't!
I used to do that all the time, but now I don't do these emo moments that much anymore.
You make me feel really angry.
I feel like punching you.
Hard.
Throughout the day, whenever my friends were with me,
I felt like crying.
Maybe it was guilt for depressing them about me.
Just because of my pain, I've caused them to be like this.
In science Mr. Huffman asked, "Do you have the picture?"
"Oh," I replied simply, reaching down towards my backpack.
A guy who sits next to me gasped in amazement, "She has it!!!"
Everyone began to crowd around me.
Most of the football dudes did.
They all waited patiently for me to show them.
I became very nervous.
I looked around, took the paper out swiftly.
I stood up and ran past the crowd, and gave it to Mr. Huffman.
Once he saw it, he laughed and told me I did an incredible job.
I felt happy.
Not hapy enough.
I feel sorry for my friends who aren't really my "best" friends.
They asked me the whole day what was wrong.
I knew once I told them, I would start to cry.
So, I never told them.
Lee-san was always concerned and always asked me.
Raito-kun wondered why, but all I did was stare at him blankly.
The others didn't say anything really.
I'm sorry.
I'll try not to do this again.
I really don't like to be too quiet.
Or too depressed.
But today I had to.
Something in me just made me.
In Focus, there's this girl named Angela.
She isn't the small Angela, she's the one who came to this school this year.
I was partially friends with her.
She saw that I was sad, she kept asking me what was wrong.
She didn't give up.
The classroom became quiet, so she wrote on the desk.
"What's wrong? C'mon tell me!"
She drew a box that was really sad, "Please?"
I wrote down the reason.
She replied by writing down, "That sucks, do you want a hug?"
I shrugged.
She hugged me really REALLY really tightly.
I felt like I was going to die.
I smiled.
I'm not sure if it was a fake or real smile.
But I smiled.
After that we just wrote down some things on the desk, erasing every other three lines of writing.
My eyes were dry the whole day.
I could never close my eyes for more than a second.
Only blinking could help.
In the bus I laid my head on Mai-chans shoulder.
I closed my eyes.
Boys on the bus said, "She's sleeping! Dude she's sleeping!"
I was just closing my eyes!
I wouldn't fall asleep on a bus.
Maybe I would, but not in this case.
After that I felt like I had no right to close my eyes anymore.
A guy was like, "Girls are weird."
Well then, you're gay my little friend.
Mai-chan you were humming Misa No Uta!
It made me feel so cuddly inside.
I really liked it.
You hummed everything exactly right.
After that the song was stuck in my head.
Now I'm listening to it...
My scanner is not working anymore.
L is making me really mad. ((Remember? L = Scanner))
I have no longer put my trust in him.
I need to scan the Christmas pictures onto the computer and color them!
I thought we had a deal, L!
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