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I know this might be a shock to some of my friends, but I really can't takr not letting this out anymore.
I'm always there for everyone. If they need help, or a shoulder to cry on, or even just an ear to listen to their rant, I'm there. Even for random people at school, who I barely know. I'm always smiling, comforting, and agreeing with everyone. I hide my true emotions alot of the time behind a FAKE smile and a CHEERFUL tone. (I had to reason for capitalizing the cheerful part). I will talk things over, even though I really just want to scream. I keep my ******** temper as often as I can, even when my friends refuse to do something for reasons that make no ******** sense. I mean, really! I smile and encourage them to do it anyways, and my voice may get a little sharp, but I never shout, I never snap, I never lose my infurriating ******** control. So I'm always ******** there for every ******** one. So I'm actually snapping here. I'm going CRAZY. But I do have people I can talk to, besides me Mum and Dad. My best friends are there for me, although some I can't tell certain things. ((Yes, it occurs with all three of you, if you are reading this.)) Gods knows how many things I've kept from C and S. I don't normally keep things from R, but I do occasionally. ((AND IF YOU GUYS GET PISSED AT ME FOR THIS THEN I WILL KILL MYSELF! (jk)))
I don't tell you guys this ((Actually, I told C recently)) because I don't want you to worry about me. And my sanity. But now I realized something...
I'm there for everyone else, but I never had someone there for me, I never thought to. But then I realized *Cues sappy music* I do. I have you guys. *Sappy music gets really loud* STFU! *Shoots sappy music CD player* Anyways, I do have you guys, and I'm really glad for it. So please love me forever, and never hate me for keeping things from you, it's my way, it's what I've done for so long.
When she embraces you
Your heart turns to stone
She comes at night
When your all alone
And when she whispers
Your blood shall run cold
You'd better hide before she finds you
Whenever she is raging, she takes all life away
 Nyaphlaire · Mon Dec 24, 2007 @ 06:24am · 3 Comments |
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