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Well, yes. It is Christmas Eve today. So far. I don't have as many presents as I used to have when I was a young child. My brother asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I told him the "Ipod touch." He went out shopping for everyones gifts with his girlfriend. He kept calling my mom asking things what to buy and sizes. He asked her what I wanted and she said the Wii. Well for every store here, the orders are backed up and they won't have some for a while. So he knew I wanted the touch, and went out to wherever to buy it. He saw it was 300-400 dollars and called my mom while I was in bed. She came to my room and turned the phone on speaker. He said he would buy the Nano instead, because it was cheaper. He asked what color and my mom asked me, I wanted black. She told him and they hung up. The next day (today) when he came home from work, I was looking at what he was holding. It was a glitter kit. I stared at it and he said, "this is all your getting." I felt sad because I really wanted the touch or at least the Nano. Finally I found out it wasn't my gift, but his girlfriend's. Now he is making some kinda of gift for her like they always do and it's really special to them. Before dinner he said, "Your not getting anything from me for Christmas, you don't give me anything!" Then I felt the worst. I couldn't stop thinking about it and still can't. I told my mom and she doesn't know whats up either! I'm trying to forget about it but I just can't. He hasn't brought home any presents and was shopping for hours the night before! It's getting pretty late but nothing has come and he hasn't went out. I wonder what he's planning but he always surprises everyone. thats his kind of thing. I just hope he doesn't forget tomorrows Christmas. I know it's kind of selfish but for years now, I haven't gotten anything good and barely any presents. I don't even know why I would bother to even get up and wake up everyone. I guess it's just the lights, the smell of gingerbread, chocolate, popcorn, pine. Everything. Just the thought makes me feel so ecstatic. I guess I can forget about it and think of what's better in life. The real reason why this holiday happens. The real occasion. AMEN!