Oh my gosh, I can not believe that I have reached a whole new level of boredom. I have never been this bored before, I think. Just me, myself, and I sitting in the house all day. On the computer, going downstairs to eat when necessary. I have a problem just like Bobburst450. There is this boy I like. I won't tell you his name yet. I need some help on this because I am thinking of asking him if he likes me back. I mean we hang out sometimes and when we do, we always have fun, but I feel something stronger than a friendship. I just want to know if he does also. It's kinda hard because he runs my mind all day long. Whenever he walks by me, I just have to see him leace until he is gone. Or whenever he comes into my class, I have to stare at him until he leaves. It drives me crazy. There is also another boy that I like though. It totally creeps me out because he does the same thing that the other boy does to me. I just don't get to see him that often. Two great people. What the heck do I do? I mean the first boy is constantly staring at me and I stare right back. Not because I have to, but because I want to. It's so weird because at the time that I want this to go a step further, I also want it to stay at a friend level. Ever hear tha song by Good Charleotte"I Don't Want To Be In Love". Well, I don't want to be in love at my age. The other problem is that is where I think that I am headed. I don't want to go because I have been hurt before and I don't want to be hurt again. The pain of growing up. I hate love because all it does is hurt you. You think that it helpsyou, but it really doesn't. I am not ready for a relationship and nor do I do relationships. I guess I just want to show my dad something because he said that school is the only thing on my mind. That really pissed me off because my dad doesn't really know me like that. He doesn't know what I think about. How the heck would he know that school is all I'm worried about. I hate him sometimes, like right now. I can just hate him to a loathing point. twisted heart crying ninja Helllllllllllllllllllllllppppppppppppppppppppp.
Love and other indoor sports,
Serenity My Sweet
(I'm not always sweet you know)(giggle)(I'm auctually not sure who or what I am sometimes)(giggle)Reppin them geminis
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 Midnight Magdeline · Wed Dec 26, 2007 @ 09:55pm · 1 Comments |
