*sigh*............im confused? what do you mean?
today was a good day......except im starting to feel like im being avoided.......which i guess is kinda parinoid......and im mad i wanted a new avatar*pouts*on the other hand i got a really awesome new hoodie!!and my cocoa tastes great...yum!!!
school back in session soon.............and i found a new manga i love......become a computer zombie.....havent gotten any homework done.......... and i feel like such a naive fool.........my birthdays coming in like 17 days ......kinda exciting but man o so scary.adult hood is finally at my doorstep.and its knocking VERY VERY loudley........cant aviod it....not sure i want to anyways lol.....i almost found her im so close i can feel it.....i decided i hate the ocean.....cant stop thinking about a couple people and the desicions i have made. with my childhood coming to an end i feel so......thoughtful....i look back and i see so many things i could have dealt with better......so many things i never got to do and now...its too late..so many pathways unexplored......but on the dawn of this new year....with my leap intO the adult world also happenig ..i think i have decided to (this is gonna sound so cliche) live life to the fullest!!!!!! im so tired of considering other peoples feelings before my own ...just once i wanna do something without thinking of how someone else is gonna feel.i want to feel like i do with my bff forever.........i want that night in the rain ,people walking by staring and knowing they wish they could have what we have......singing ...dancing barefoot....in miniskirts and wet heavy hair sticking to me and shivering laughs and giggles splashing through puddles no care in the world no worries just the moment in my head the falling rain and her and me isolated in a way ....feeling that i could relive thta over and over and i would never get bored...to feel like thta forever.... young ....invincible.... strong ....cazy...wild and spontaniouse......beatifully completly me .........a goddess in my own right........i want thta feeling always .so in this new year with my change upon me ..........i decide to give my self that. the decision to always strive to fell that way to ......LIVE
i actually wrote this for a different sit but now more then before i feel this way.....
i know im a fool but i cant help it i want it
get creative! be productive!
and remeber
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