Well there goes my crush on Khalif. I swear he gets on my nerves. He went up to my step-cousin and talked to her. I swear he flirts wiht about half the girls in my school. Why the heck are some people just jerks. Ohh, I swear that the next time he looks at me the wrong way I will slap him dead in his mouth. Today at lunch time, everyone at the table that he sits at stared at me for atleast two minutes straght. It wass o weird. What were they staring at me for? He even did it himself. If he does like me I don't care anymore. I can wait until I old and dead for someone to have feelings like that for me. Yet, people constantly tell me that I am pretty. How come I NEVER feel like it? I look in the mirror and what I see is not pretty, but ugly. I find myself on the verg of tears when I look at BET and compare mysefl to them. I'm nothing like them. My stomach isn't flat. My hair isn't all that long and I don't have the body to be wearing what it is that they wear. I watch it and I feel fat and ugly. Then I go to someone and they tell me that I'm so pretty. Why don't I EVER fell like it? All my friends have boyfriends or atleast they had one. Me, I've been boyfriend-less all my life. Did I ever change myself to impress someone? Hell yea!!! I honestly liked that person, but he liked my cousin, and I ended up spending my whole entire school year trying to impress him. I felt so stupid that I could have cried. Yet, I stood strong. Now, I feel just as stupid. There's also this other guy. He's in highschool. I call him carrot top cause he''s hair is orange he has this real light skin. I thnk he is so cute, but we've never spoken two words to the guy. I've asked him to move for me when we were on the bus cause he was sitting next to me. That's when I noticed how good he smelled. Like this cologne that you can't get out of your nose. I've had daydreams about him. Their a little too racy for the children. Do you guys ever thnk I've been in love or just in love or in love with the idea of being in love? crying crying heart heart evil evil twisted twisted
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 Midnight Magdeline · Sat Jan 26, 2008 @ 12:35am · 3 Comments |
