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It seems like I have grown up more in this past month than in my whole life. I have always been a submissive person always wanting to please others. Thinking with my head in the clouds, putting others before myself, and wandering around looking for something, but I haven't found it becuase I don't know what it is, Love. Perhaps this is just all a phase of becomeing and adult. You die a little on the inside every month until you are completely dead on the inside and you have no reason for living other than to see if it can get any worse than it aready is. That sounds depressing and all but from now on I don't give a flying ******** what you think. I am done pleasing others who demand more and more from me. When they get what they want they are still never happy. Spoiled. This is my life and I am not going to be the girl in the back ground anymore. I will finally do what makes me happy. It seems I can never please anyone no matter how hard I try, so I'm givning up. This small town seem to get even smaller as I grown older. I'm suffercating in this place. I need a change for the better before I go insane. I need to start over and this time I will start over the right way, the way I want to.