Today and err yesterday has been weird. I cant sleep at all now. I'm exhausted. And my heart is beating like crazy... In some good ways and in some bad.
You know... I dont know... I wish I did, and I think I do but we'll just see... It's late, I cant formulate thoughts. Everything is crashing down on me right now all the sudden. I mean, it's just sooo stressful, I feel like throwing someone down on the ground and gutting them! scream GAR. But I'm not goint to do that @_@. Perhaps though everyone will figure out their lives and there will be just a brief shining moment in more then one of our lives that we can share together in happiness. That would be divine.

The world however doesn't work that way. As much as I wish it did, and as much as I wish I could help with it. Its just not going to change. Somebody help me. I need someone to help me. I need someone to be there for me. That would be the greatest thing in the world right now.

I guess the thing that I wish I had the most, don't think of me as stupid for saying this because I'm not the only one who thinks this way, but I need Love. I want to love and be loved. I want to share this feeling with someone special... Someone who I trust, someone I care about soo dearly. Someone I would gladly sacrifice all there is to sacrifice to be with. It may sound silly but that means the world to me. cry


... Happy birthday to me tomorrow wooo. *lacking enthusiasm*
*Leaves to cut stuff with his box cutter* Snooooowflaaaakesssss..... Bleh.
*Dies of some incredibly stupid freak accident that leads him to a videogame of sorts*