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So when everything starts to go crazy what is it that you have to hold on to? I mean,You hit your senior year finally and it's like this spiral were to can see only so far to the bottom before it gets swallowed up in shadows. It's not like you have a choice but to follow these steps down and down though,and as you get closer you can see the other side your about to go down and you can see all the other spirals of all the people you know going down with you.
But what's weird about the whole thing is that the spirals don't just go down into the bottomless future of whatever you wanna do it also has these weird little side spirals that go off towards other people and in weird directions. See,If you try and get closer or farther away from a person taking one of these tracks you'll never really know if your getting closer or farther.Never knowing were your going or where your gonna end up,you just kinda twist around and down these stairs looking for ways to readh out to others and places till you gfet so losat in the shadows at the bottom you get turned around.
Right now,as I keep going down my little stairway and think about the day after this one, I can only think about a few things that keep bothering me and they're all these weird material things that I probaly bother about but are sadly necessity to live.I dunno,I just find myself being serios about a lot of things and getting angry about a lot of things along the way.
I think eventually I might get a little lonely on my staircase and I wanna find another stair case to walk next to and talk about what they have to say about anything in general.But when I do this lately I kinda wanna push that person off there stair case in agrravation.

I think that this will all go away soon and I think that at the end of High school the stair cases will turn into those annoying moving sidewalks and I'll keep trying to walk backwards with my eyes shut to get back to those confounded stairs.
All and All I just kinda feel lost and pressure for so many things.Between finding a job worth a damn,Friends,crushes,and just plain drama it's hard to keep myself together a lot of the time.If people really wanna know about me like they say they do I'm a book man! I'll pour it all out and let yas drown in it if you want,but I hate being babied and can't stand people that can't except that I like my staircase sometimes.