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This is a notebook of all my thoughts throughout whenever.I'm an idiot.Now that we've well established that you have can have no whining whatsoever about my Journal or Retardation.
Some people are born closer to the sun....
But that just means that they are blinded by it's rays.
It makes me twitch when people make excuses for something they've done that was stupid. Everyone does it,even me. But that doesn't mean it doesn't annoy the CRUD outta me!
At least I say I'm sorry somewhere in there or look back on it and go,"Gawd.That was stupid.....Why did I do that." not sit there like a cocky brat and continue to say that I'm right and everyone is wrong. That makes me hate people.It truly does. If you ignore me or Say something that makes me cry you should say something(eventually) like,"Geez,I'm sorry. My bad.We were both being so stupid." not,and I mean ABSOULUTLY NOT! say:"Well,You know you should be GRATEFUL that I even pointde out how stupid you were being you should ask me what/why I did that because it's only right if I can do so because...Blah Blah Blah!"

THAT makes me angry. THAT makes me wanna rip things off the walls.Even if it is my new mount I just got back!
WAHHHHHHH! JUST WAHHHH!!!
I dunno I feel so stupid about being mad about things like this later and it makes me tear myself up inside so bad. Makes me close off and kinda curl up and do weird things.


I just don't know.I mean,I'm almost an adult (BLLLAH!) According toall of the people I talk to and that I need to get over the little things like that.But who really judges what is little?I hear so many conflicting things on this.
"Don't sweat the same stuff."
"Love is all you need."
"If it matters,then it's never small."

Then you have the people who take you the wrng way and life just snowballs out of control! I hate it when I get like this,and all it takes is one comment.ONE freakin' comment and I just implode upon myself and others. GAWD I just hate it!
I now I have no life! Yeah thanks for rubbing it in! Yeah I know that I have to go places I don't want to! Yeah I know! I know! I'm a failure okay?! A freakin' Failure! But what more does everyone expect from me but Failure? I mean after all I am the huggable silly Dannie Yoko who has to be a certain way every gawd damn day!! Who has to have bad grades compared to someone but slightly better grades then this person because I'M A FAILURE!
Happy now?
BLAHHHHH!!!! *Fumes and crys*


BLAH! Why can't we all have a strategy guide to life?Seriously?






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MidnightRose5
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commentCommented on: Mon Feb 25, 2008 @ 04:39am
*I'm trying to sound encouraging as I say this not angry or defensive. This is me trying to be upbeat and encouragine.*

If you're so upset by what people have labled you as, the huggable, as you say failure Dannie, then why not take what they said, learn from it and PROVE that you are worth so much MORE than that! You're not a failure. You can succeed. If you really want to do something you should just go for it. Don't let what people say hold you back. Don't get this mindset of what people think of you become what you truly think of yourself. If you really want to do something that you know you can do, then just do it! Prove to everyone that you can! Take what these people are saying and learn from it. You have to take constructive critisism even if it does cause destruction. You have to build off of it and become something what no one would expect from them. Make people turn heads when they see you. Double take at what you are.
I don't know if this blog involves me in some way and if it has then I'm really sorry I said somehting so hurtful. You have to call me on that and really let me know when I've done something to hurt you or something that's made you upset. I try to be open and honest with people when I'm agry at them - like when we had that spat back in septembe. Maybe you should try to do the same. You have to learn to fight your own battles even if it means hurting someone else.
I love you and if you need someone to talk to then you can always talk to me - even though I've been busy with my SCAD stuff! >< Tonight is the exception to my offer. But after tonight my college stuff is all over and done with until I get the final verdict. I'm sorry I'vebeen spacy lately. ^^;;
I hope you can get through all of this and realize how beautiful of a person you are.


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