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I sat the darkness, in a cold, quiet room
Just thinking
Thinking of the people i've missed
Thinking of the moments i've ruined
Thinking about what i've done so far in my life
'was it good?'
If i died the next day...
What would anyone remember me for...?
Thats what people are worried about, you know you feel that way too
But...why? i couldn't care less
You spend your whole life working for something, hard, and when i comes down to it....
Its useless.
But you do it anyway, study, working hard.
Its what keeps life sane.
Someone once told me, that a life isn't ruined as long as there is love in it.
Then...I smiled in that room.
I'm going to keep working hard, even if it keeps failing and you end up more upset and crushed than before.
Because i have reason, i want to make others happy.
Even if they hate me, i want to try my best to make others smile.
Because even it you make one person smile, change the way a person thinks.
You've done something and you can't fail.