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I Wish... I just wish that I can talk to Lyndsay. To try to make her understand. I felt like pushing her away...I don't know why.. Should I got with my feelings? I don't know. I just want to explain to her and tell her that I'm sorry. That....pushing her away was the stupidest thing that I have ever done... IT IS THE STUPIDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE!!! It pained me more than I though. I've had enough.... I've had enough of myself for making stupid decisions!!! Stupid decisions that pain me and those I care about!!!! Thats why..... No, wait...Wait a minute! Ugh! I'm so stupid!! I can't believe myself!!! How can I not trust my friends!! I know them!! They CAN help me make good decisions!!! Oh My God!!! Lyndsay can help me!! But...I guess I just didn't want to realize it!! Oh My God!! But....it's just to late now..she hates me... GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!! I'M SO MAD AT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm such a freaken idiot..... God....I really made a huge mistake..... Loosing Lyndsay...I really do Love her as a sister Gah!! If only she can listen to me now...GAH!!! I really do want to make up with her and tell her how Sorry I am and how much of a stupid idiot I am!!!!!!!! Oh my god.....Damn it! If only I..... Gah!!! Nagisa! Help me!!!

Posted by: ustan-sama Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 06:28am

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Makeup is icky
My blue bathrobe is fluffy
And I will always and forever love Pokemon

Our song of hope, she dances on the wind
Higher, oh, higher
Ere our hopes endure
Everything's the will of the strong
Standing tall in the dark, til we carry on

On wings of hope, you rise up through the night
Higher, oh, higher
Carrying a song
Raise up everything in our hearts
that its chorus might ring for all!

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Commented on: Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 07:51am


	Heres my advice- CALL HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or something along those lines. NO!!! I have an idea! I want you to PM me, type exataly want you want to say, and I will tell her! I'll like mail it to her or somehting!

Commented on: Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 09:58am


	And acctuaaly he stupiest thing you ever did was when you purposely ren into 2 poles remeber?! This Is like The Second Stupidest!

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shina hosokoawa
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Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 06:00pm


	Hey. I explained to lyndsay the situation that your in and so i don't think she hates u anymore but she wants me to print out one of the journals that i commented on so she can see for herself. So u don't have to worry about that problem anymore. Ok? Thanks for listening. Just remember that ur not alone in this world and that ur friends r here to help when u need it.

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