My two older brothers. One is 25 didn't move out till he was 24 and is a playboy. The other is gonna fail 10th grade, smokes pot, and has no goals at all. then there's me, the one who is nice. I might fail one of my classes and I'm having a break down about it, and it's an ELECTIVE!!!!! but my mind won't let it go. Today were cleaning up for family, and my pot head brother is up at the park getting high. I'm hear getting the bad end of my mom's bad mood. I'm not sure why but I started crying for no reason, not sure why but I did. I started thinking while I was crying, mom's gonna come down here, say something smart-a** too my dad, making sure I can hear mind you, and make me cry more and her and dad get in a argument. Not five min.s later, here comes mom. and guess what happens? want to know? re-read the last couple sentences. but the reason I think I had a break down is because of this. I do more work at home then my brother, I work harder at school things then my brother, I beat myself up more over little things then my brother, and guess what I get? the bad end of my moms bad day, same from dad. mom seems to get angry when ever I cry, whether I can help it or not, and dad baby's me, when I just want to be left alone. I truly doubt this is true but hey, writing all this made me feel better.
 blooddippedmoon12 · Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 09:54pm · 0 Comments |
