[RANT]So needless to say I've been depressed as hell, really. I've gone to the point where suicide looks pretty good right about now. And no, it's not just because CJ broke up with me, it's because I don't feel loved at all, ******** I don't even feel beautiful anymore. Apparently I'm just a walking v****a to everyone that you can either finger, ******** or do anything else you can think of to it. I just realized that everyone looks at me like a walking v****a, and it pisses me the ******** off to no end. Reggie, Preston, Xavier, DJ, Poptart..and everyone else who only wants or did use me for my v****a. I'm not sure anyone gives a ******** how I feel or anything like that. You people don't give a s**t about anything do you? It's spread your legs and then let me keep going. Well ******** all you guys. My own goddamn father doesn't even love me and that's a ******** shame. The only people who act like they really truly care about my well being are Cheyenne, Nida and Leanna. Sometimes you people don't think before you do things, you really don't. "Oh I'm doing this because it makes you happy." the hell if it does! Did I ask you guys to break my heart? Did I ask you to feel me up, get your damn jollies off and then leave me like I'm some kinda whore? No, I don't believe I did. You guys don't know how your actions effect my emotions. Yeah, I'm my own person, but dammit people also feed off energy. You have all managed to kill me emotionally and this is just my way of saying thanks. [/RANT]
 Peprika · Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 09:28am · 3 Comments |
