Well this vacation sucks. But you'll hear all about this another day when I actually get back to the states.
Right now this is dedicated to how much I am not liking what see here on Gaia. I return and the donation items aren't that great from first look. Most likely I'll like em later but whatever. Meh. That is no biggie. What has me singing the blues though is I lost the election for Guild Captain. Makes me mad and sad and all sorts of other things. Mad cause the vote happened whilst I wasn't even near a comp to make myself feel better that I lost knowing I had a chance to vote. Mad cause I couldn't see how it unfolded. I don't mind losing but I wanna see it happen, not come and "Oh, by the way you lost." Sad because I actually really wanted it. I been working my a** of for that guild ever since Christmas of '04. That's when I joined Poll Jumpers. I joined and I posted, I polled, I chatted...everything. I spent a lot on nothing...an internet thing. But I did since I still cared and it seemed nice. But still lost. Meh, oh well. Still however it all riles me up. And now I'm faced with the similar question I had when I lost the election for Jurisdiction last year for DeMolay. Do I stay active and do what I been doing? Or do I fall off the map and find a new love and joy for me to kill my time? When I lost jurisdiction it was a big flutter since I didn't know at all. But my spirits were raised since I found love after a lost battle. This time however there is nothing to raise my spirits since even Wobina is gone since last week to make me even more sad. So...what to do...what to do. Right now through all these emotions of vacation and now this I say I'll just find a new place to kill my time. But deep inside I think I'll stay with a bitter taste. It won't do much since I'll hold that against the guild highly. But still I can't seem to leave PJ's just yet. I'll probably stick around til this Christmas. Depending what happens by than will tell if I'll stay long or not in PJ's. I'm not gonna sit around and keep slaving for something that won't get me much more than what I have. I love to serve but I too have ambitions and needs to fill this ambition and if it is not filled I"ll find it elsewhere. However in DeMolay I didn't get a real chance to do anything else for even though I have no title I still work as a divisional officer and people still look to me for the same old questions and problems they have always had...etc. etc. Here however I dunno. We'll see how ambition burns after my emotions are set aside. Well talk to ya later holmes. Can't wait to get home to the states. To weather that is not humid. To...peace, tranquility, and things that makes teh heart satisfied truely. To running on my own time. Well, til next time...
 Dirteh Old Man · Fri Jul 29, 2005 @ 10:23pm · 3 Comments |
