Haha. I really didn't have to go to court stuff. We were throwing my friend a surprise party! Yaayyyy! It was fun, but it had lotz of drama.
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lots of people hid in the closet, including me.
I went in there to write (even though I wasn't. I was just messing around on Imovie) and it smelled. Cause her little sister had farted in there. A lot obviously. Then after like 15 minutes they noticed I was gone and I had to bang on the door.
Then I tried to get out and they slammed the door on my head because they said the didn't want the stinky smell coming out... so I sat in the corner and cried. Because no one cared and because no one even noticed I was gone till after 15 minutes... but if my friend Alexis crosses the room everyone is like
"OMG iz she sad? Should we follow her. Yes, lets..."
I'm not really mad anyone. Especially not Alexis... I guess I envy her. She's able to make people care about her. But I have to friggin scream out the pain of my parent's divorce and the effect it has for people to notice or care. And it's only for a few seconds......
And then they go back to Alexis. I wish I were her, or someone else, or no one.
If I were no one then I'd fit in with how I'm usually treated.
Oh well. Guess ugly girls can't always get attention.
cry cry sweatdrop
Anywayz! I need to think positive thoughts! Even if I DO want to crawl in a corner and hibernate, I will act happy and strong and friendly because I believe it's the best I can do and I believe that my friends need that kind of spirit around them... although they obviously hate it... but I don't wanna act sad... oh well
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