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To everyone who cares,

This is an apology for the way i've ben acting these past few weeks. I know I've scared a lot of people with my anger because I normally don't get like this.

Some people may think that i hate Bree and Alex with a passion. well, I don't, truth is i still love Alex a lot and i will still take a bullet for Bre if i had to. Theres only two people in this world that i hate and those two arent them. Truth is, i didnt want to accept my own ignorance in the subject. The demon in me took over.

I know dep down that they didnt hurt me on purpose and i truly take back all the hurtful things i said to Bree, she really is a nice girl who will make Alex happy. I also take back that idle threat to Alex about turning him into the police , Also, i am no moving in with Mike, i jsut said that to make Alex mad but it did the opposite. I know this apology came a little late but it needed to be said. Also im not the only one who needs to apologize, Alex said some mean things to me also so he needs to apologize to me, yeah my family may not be as rich as his but we manage, and for him to say i will ever make it into college really hurt and it makes me feel like i cant do it anymore.

I was talking to Daemon the other day and he slapped me. He said he's never seen me like this and even he didnt want to be my friend anmore. I am ignorant, selfish, and very stupid yes, but i do thank those who've stayed with me in the past few years. anyway Daemon told me something, he said dont let your stupidity coud over your judgement of two very wonderful and loving friends who didnt mean you any harm. They didnt do it on purpose and everything happens for a reason. so grow up already and start living for tomorrow instead of yesterday. This could be a good thing for you. I suggest you get down on your knees and beg them to be your friends again because quite frankly, i dont think even i can stay your friend when your like this.

That made me think a lot. and i knows it's probably too late to say this but Alex, Bree, im sorry for all my stupidity and ignorance. I understand if you refuse to give me a chance to start over but if you could, id really like to start ver.

Im sorry

~Toni