It's been four years since my uncle terry died. I remember my sister waking me up at 4 in the morning, on the dot, telling me that he died. I didn't believe it at first, until I saw my mom putting on her makeup getting ready to leave. We went to the hospital, and me and katie sat in the waiting room. Tessa wasn't with us yet. She was at her house, with her step sister, sleeping. I remember me and katie sitting outside in between my mom and Jade, and hugging them because they were crying. Neither one of us cried then. Jade took Steia's truck with me and katie back to Steia's house, because Tessa had woken up (and she was very attached to me and katie). I ended up falling asleep on steia's couch. I remember all of our family going over. And we stayed there for the rest of the day. It was really sad. Everybody kept crying, except me and katie and my younger cousins. I remember when we got home, me and katie cried ourselves to sleep. And I remember bawling at the funeral too. I wasn't even that attached to him, just more so than I am to the rest of my uncles. I was closer to him than I am to my dad.
And now, everything has gone to ruins. Steia's on crack. She sold just about everything her and Terry had. The house caught on fire (but is still standing, as far as I know.) My mom has custody of both Tessa, and her half brother Nicholas. Everybody is usually in a bad mood. Our house is overcrowded with people, as well as having a leaky roof and flooding basement. Everybody is mentally exhausted most of the time, and Tessa has turned into a brat with a separation anxiety (that's what I call it).
Sometimes, I blame the problems on Steia. If she would have coped better with Terry's death, she wouldn't be on crack. Tessa wouldn't have half of the problems she has now. Gramma wouldn't feel so exhausted and tired and bitchy most of the time. Our house wouldn't be over crowded. We'd actually be able to do stuff, and ENJOY it.
I just wish everything would go back to "normal." I can't even remember how long it's been since all of my family did something together, and didn't argue about something.
SuperSingingSox · Tue Jun 24, 2008 @ 09:08pm · 0 Comments |