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This is just a random story. I want to work on my story, Soulless Affections, but apparently Aniki has to download the micorsoft thingy majing.
So out of my boredom, I've just decided to write for the fun of it. Plus I've been daydreaming to much today so yeah


"Shara!!! Be sure to lock the door when you go out!!!" My mom called from the doorway.
I didn't answer. I waited until she closed the door. A few minutes later, there was a light knock on by sliding glass doors that led to the balconey.
I knew who it was. He always came when my mom leaves to work at night. My mom thinks that I get really lonely because she's gone.
I didn't feel alone, even before I met him. I liked the quiet and peacefullness of the house. I was glad to be alone.
Until I met him. He started coming over after a week after I met him.
I sighed and sat up as the wind gently blew into my room.
I turned to see him. He was now standing in my room. His long white hair flowed gently and beautifully with the wind. He smiled that kind smile of his.
"Hey." I said to him.
His smile faded. "You don't seem happy." he said as he came and sat down next to me on my right side, thought he turned so he could look at me.
"You're right. I'm not." I layed back down again, my hands resting on my stomach. "I have a test tomarrow and I haven't studied yet. But the thing is, Beniko is going to be calling me all night and I'll get distracted." I sighed.
"Then why won't you tell her you have a test tomarrow?" he asked me.
"She doesn't know that I have a test. She's different from my REAL mom. She never asks me if I'm going to have a test and she doesn't bother to look at my Progress and Report cards. I vowed to mom that I'll start taking things seriously when I entered high school. But instead, she died and me and Aniki decided that it's best if we didn't live with each other.
Steven, my case manager, asked me if I wanted to go back to that place." I shook my head.
"I know what your answer is, but I guess that you added something more then no."
I nodded. "I said Hell No. There is no way that I'm going to room with an 10 and 11 year old. But of course, first he asked me if I wanted to live with my relatives but of course, I said no. So he put me up for adoption."
"Then Beniko came?" "Yeah."
I haven't noticed that my cd player was on. I realized thar it was on when it started Melodea.
"This song..."
I nodded. "This is one my favorite japanese songs. Melodea by Mai Hoshimura. It keeps me calm and makes me wanna go and hang out." I smiled. "I love her voice."
After a few minutes of listening to the song, he asked me "When do you want me to leave?"
"I don't want you to leave." I replied almost immediatly. "When Beniko comes and check on me, you can hide in my closet."
The song ended then started playing Regret.
"What's this song called?" "It's another song by Mai Hoshimura. It's called Regret."
"Why don't you want me to leave?"
I looked at him with wide eyes. I couldn't see his expression. I crawled and sat next to him. "Do you want to leave?" I asked, my voice sounding softer then I thought.
He sighed then stood up. He walked over to the balconey and gripped on the rail with both hands. "Why don't you want me to leave?" he asked in a sharp voice. It almost sounded like he wanted to leave. To leave me....
I felt anger build in my chest. I asked him kindly if he wanted to leave. What's with all this harsh voice all of a sudden?
The song ended then started playing One of us by Joan Osborne.(I like that song. I may not be christian but I like it!)
I stood up. "Rai. Why are you asking? Do you need to know? Even thought I would like you to stay, you can leave. I won't force you. You're not a human so I have no right to force you to stay." I said in a calm voice.
Then it started playing Eternal Snow, Piano Version.
"In truth, I don't know why I want you to stay." I looked down at my barefeet. "I guess I haven't changed much from 3 years ago....have I? I still don't know my feelings for certain people."
"Is it love, then?"
My head shot up with wide eyes. He was looking at me, his eyes were empty, his hands were balled into fists.
It started playing It Ends Tonight by All American Rejects.
"......What...?" Was all I managed to say.
"Shara. Do you love me?" He asked in a flat voice.
"I thought I told you. I don't know my feelings. And what's with you all of a sudden?"
He sighed and turned around. "I'm leaving. I'll try to pick you up from school and go somewhere since tomarrow is Friday."
Try? "Listen, Rai. You don't have to. Don't try to do things that you don't want to do for me. I'm used to being alone."
With that, he left.
I sighed. I looked at my clock. It's 7 o'clock. I already ate dinner. So what the hell am I going to do now.
I walked over to my closet and looked around it.
The cd player started playing Your Guardian Angel by The Redjump Suits.
I sighed as I listened to the song for a while then turned it of at 2:12. So much for my Guardian Angel.
I took out some clothes and put it on. I wore a buttoned up white collared shirt and a black shirt that's half way down to my knees. I wore long black socks that are two or three inches away from my knees.
I walked down stairs and put on my outdoor school shoes. I walked outside and locked the door. I walked and walked until I reached my favorite hill that has a good view of the town. I took a deep breath and started to sing one of my favorite Japanese songs, Eternal Snow by Changin' My Life.

Kimi wo Suki ni natte Dorekurai tatsuno kana
Kimochi fukurande yuku bakari de
Kimi wa kono omoi kidzuiteiru no kana
Ichido mo Kotoba niwa shitenai kedo

Yuki no youni tada shizukani
Furi sumori tudzukete yuku
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Hold Me Tight Konna omoi nara
Dareka wo Suki ni naru kimochi
Shiritaku nakata yo
I love You Mune ni komiageru
Fuyuzora ni sakebitai
Ima suku kimi ni aitai yo.....

Hold Me Tight

I Love you

"That's a beautiful song."
I gasped and turned around sharply.

(I'll continue tomarrow)