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Have you ever been called a monster and you dont know how to shoot back from it? What if you are a monster? What if it isnt a bad dream? What if...you could hurt someone you love and you know you could do it. Im bruised and torn because of what i am, and it hurts even the tear drops sting as they slide down my skin touching every cut on the way....and im afraid of what i am, i cant control it and people think that i should be able to control what i am. I mean theres a fine line between a normal person and a monster, alot of people call me the monster, especialy when i slip up and hurt someone, and they nead to understand i cant get rid of it...i was born with it and i will die with it and i cant control it all the time i cant keep sliping away from my family at night and come back blood staind...im not a killer...i just nead to learn that for myself. Leave comments if uve read this..cause i dont know.