I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
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I actually like the Pussycat Dolls. But the song that I posted is "Who I Am Hates Who I've Been" by Relient K. They've got some kick a** songs. But yeah, now to the point of this journal. I was looking through at my other ones and my way of thinking has changed a lot since then. Is it because I've watched some things that influenced me in a way? I'm not as crazy hyper like I use to be. Am I growing up? I always wonder what and who I'll become but I'll still always be Kenzie, or atleast I hope. I hope I don't become a snob and leave my friends in the dust. I dont like who I use to like. I still dislike who I disliked.
But even that said I still have feelings for him. I feel like moving away and then there is no way that I could possibly ever be with him again and I'll have to move on. Am I pathetic for still liking him? Possibly. Pathetic. I'll always be that though. I can't change it.
Sorry, but this time I blame him.
Hm, I do dislike who I've been. Loud, brash, and... immature. I hate that.
In other news my birthday is July 10th.
