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Right now, I feel numb. That's right.
I don't know how to feel.
The guy I'm in love with (who, mind you, pretended to like me) told me that he liked someone else.
Which crushed my already fragile heart.
I cried for days on end. I guess Misery is my best friend as of right now.
My mom already thinks I'm depressed. This has just made it worse.
I haven't talked to him in I don't know how long. And I don't plan on talking to him anytime soon.
When school starts again, I don't know how I'll face him. He's already caused me so much damage.
So I told myself, and Hideki, that I'm giving up on love.
It's a lost cause, and doesn't exist in my world.
Hideki told me that is not the greatest idea.
But I told him for now, it is.
This has already happened to me a lot in the past.
Seems since my 'incident' with a certain person, love hasn't gone right for me.
And I don't think it will. Ever.
As they say, "I found my Prince Charming. Too bad he already found his Cinderella." Or, "Someone told me that they loved me. I sneezed. And told them that I was allergic to bullshit."
And that's the way it is. If someone told me that they loved me (outside of my family), I wouldn't believe them in for second.
I still wish that he loved me.