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Not only has my side been hurting since Friday, yet now just being a sharp pain, something else has happened that has speared into my heart, making today a terrible day for me.
Sure, I've had many terrible days. And I'm not saying that anything can really replace that day when my ex-boyfriend has broken up with me for the second time, making my reaction so mad, my heart felt like it literally fell in my stomach and I haven't spoken for a week.
No, I wasn't heartbroken by a guy for the 7,000th time. It was, instead, by a girl. A girl around the age of 6 or 7. But in other years, another life, it is so much older. She is my daughter. My adorable little daughter. MALD. My guinea pig. I have lost her today.
Yes, I know it's sad and probably most dreadful when a pet that's close, dies. I know that her time was to come, eventually. I know she was old. Her poor legs weren't working that well. She was very limp. But she was close. Close like a daughter, in so many ways. You may say that I will get over it. Maybe you'll say that I'm just too damn emo. Suck it up. It's just a lousy guinea pig. I could get another one, it wouldn't be any different. Well, those who think that are wrong. Those who think that are so cold-hearted. Those who think that... has never bonded with their pet like I have.
Sure, I might've been away from her a lot. But when I first got her, it was like we were meant to be together. She crawled up my arm, up my sleeve, and would not get out. I didn't bring her home in a box. I brought her home in my coat sleeve. In my arms. And as the years went by, she grew. She got older. And now, I'm sure of it, she's in a better place.
So don't give me that "oh brother" look, or say that I sound like an immature brat. These words come from deeper than my heart.
And that, my friends, is how I'm feeling, right now. I will never forget this day.

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