I Fell Deeply In Love With This Guy On 2/14/06. Since I Was Usually Isolated And Neglected By Everyone, I Was Lonely And Sad. Then One Day, I Logged Onto Myspace And Get An Event From A Guy Named Naruto VS. Sasuke Rasengan VS. Chidori. I Accepted The Request And Up Pops Up A Screen Full Of Hearts That Said, " My Heart Will Always Be With You." I Blushed Completely And Told Him How Nice It Was For Him To Do That. Then, I Asked Him Out. I Couldn't Believe It, He Said Yes! I Was Filled With Joy. The Days And Weeks Passed By And Then, The Next Thing You Know It, He Says, "Umm . .We Have To Break Up . ." I Ask Him Why. He Told Me To Look At His Top 1, And It Was A New Girl. I Got Hurt. Tears Started To Come Up, My Heart Started Pounding Fast And Hard, My Heart Started To Ache, My Head Got Dizzy And Confused. But, Other Than That, I Was Happy That He Found Someone Else To Be Even Happier With. When I Logged Out And Turned Off The Computer That Day, I Ran Upstairs, Into My Room, And Cried My Guts Out Until I Couldn't Cry Anymore. My Heart Was In Major Pain, I Couldn't Take It. He Took My Heart And Tore It Into Little Pieces. Later In The Past Few Months, I Start Liking Other Guys, They Get My Mind Off Of CJ But I Still Missed, Loved, And Cared For Him, Even Though I Never Showed It. Then Days Later, CJ Talks To Me. I Reply Back As Soon As I Can Saying I Loved Him And How Sorry I Was. I'd Always Hug Him And Tell Him How Much I Missed Him. Then One Day On Myspace, I Find Out That Someone Hacked My Account And Did s**t To My Profile. I Changed My Password And Remained Calm. Then Couple Days Later, I Get A Message From CJ Saying, "Why'd You Delete Me Off Of Your Friends?" I Replied, I Never Did O.o Why Would I Do That, I Love You, You Know That. Once I Hit The Send Button It Said, "Sorry, This User Only Allows Messages From Friends" I've Tried Everything To Get Him Back, But I Couldn't. Tears Started To Roll Down My Cheeks And I Started Getting Pissed And Lonely. More Months Passed By And I Start Forgetting More About CJ. Then One Day, I Start To Realize How Much Pain I Was In From Being Away From CJ, And From The Guys Treating Me Like s**t, Not Talking To Me, Or Cheating On Me. I Felt So Lonely Again. I Was Even More Hurt. Then, On 4/15/08, All Of A Sudden, On Myspace IM, It Said "VampireSora Has Logged In" I Hesitated On Talking To Him Because I Thought He Might've Forgotten About Me. More Pain Swelled Up And I Decide To IM Him, Just To Tell Him How Much I've Missed Him. We Started To Talk A Bit And I Say I'm Sorry And I Love You, Like Always. I Tell Him I Want Him Back, He Said, Only If You're Single. So I Break Up With The Guy You All Know, William, And Go Back Out With CJ. I Tell Him, Ok, I'm Single, Then He Says, "Ok, Hi! I'm Back!" I Start To Blush And Cry Of Happiness. I Always Thought I Forgot About CJ, But He Was Still In My Heart. I Could Only Tell He Was Because When I Dated That Douche Bag, William, I Went To Put . . .o.e "I Love William!" Up On My Profile, And There, I Was It Say "Don't Mess With CJ, Or Else!" And Up On My Heros List It Had CJ Listed Up On It. I'm Just So Glad He Accepted My Love. I'm Glad He Accepted My Desire. I'm Glad He Accepted Me. I'm Just So Glad He Took Me Back. My Only True Weakness In This Whole Entire World Is Losing Him, The Love Of My Life, My Guardian Angel, My Everything, CJ. . .I Don't Know What The Hell I'm Gonna Do Without Him . . .He's The Most Precious Thing In My Life . . .More Than You'll Ever Know . . .I Love Him More Than You Guys Know . . .Nothing Can Describe How Much I Love And Miss Him Each Day . . .I Guess What I'm Trying To Say Is, I Fell In Love With An Awesome Guy. And I'm Thankful For Him To Accept Everything About Me. I Love You CJ Delacruz. More Than You'll ******** Know! I May Not Sound Like It At Times, But I Really Do Love You Hun. I Fell Deeply In Love With You, And I Never Wanna Lose You And Go Through All That Pain And Suffering Again . . .It Was Just Too Much . . .Without You . .I'm Nothing . . .I Just Love You CJ. . .You're My Everything. . .There's No Reason For Me, Without You . . .I Don't Believe I Exist Without You . . .Everytime You're Away, I Die A Little In The Inside. . .I Love You So Much CJ, With And Without My Existence. I'll Never In My Whole Entire Life Let you Go, Never. I'll Love You Now An Forever CJ Delacruz, That's A Promise I Can Guarentee To Keep.
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