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hello it is 8/6/2008 its morning right now
and its already ruined
you see when i woke up at 6 i went to my Nanas room and she was half awake and i asked for $10 to go to 7-11 to get milk and sugar, which we needed for a whole month, and when i got back she was talking on the phone with pixie, one of her two sons, and i said i was back and she just waved her hand at me

now normally thats good but not today you see i went back a little latter and she was still talking and i told her that i was going to do my studies for four hours then go to the library to go online and talk things through with my friends then she yells at me i dont know why she did i was telling her a plan for my day and i included my school work in it to be precice i was going to do it before i left so i would get it done but she has to yell for some strange reason

when she yells at me i clam up i dont like yelling i get tears in my eyes and yes i admit that now where were we? ah yes yelling i fell like i need a drink when i get yelled at either that or cutting my arm (ill cover why people do this another time) and yeah im trying to live for god thats what makes all of this so hard i i wasnt living for god i could cut my arm till there was no more flesh left or drink till i puked but no im trying to live for god so i dont touch my supply

and yes i believe that will do it for now
so yes see you later