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otakon sweet yet bitter
Otakon was sweet yet bitter to me. I loved walking around looking weired and looking at all the stuff. It just makes your head spin. But the last day....was..i dont know...sad I guess and not for the obvious reason of it just being the last day. I was walking around with a buddy of mine from my previous working place when one of her friends showed up to walk with us. This person that showed up happend to be someone from my past, old scars seemed to open. It was awkward walking around with my ex-coworker and her friend from long days past. It made me miss the good ol'days back before about 4 months ago. crying I miss it all, the special jokes, feeling included, and just everything. I guess you could say I'm mixed up inside and I have been for awhile now, but no one really cares and/or understands. No ones does, everyone thinks this is a joke. I did a lot of damage and I know its my fault, but I guess I just cant pay the consequences for my actions. I'm a bad person and I know it, maybe I should just stop hurting people and myself for once.
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