sence that lil argument between me and my friend about what she did to Nick she hasnt spoken to me... and nor i her, i thought she was mad at me and when i feel that i usualy just stay totaly clear of the person so i dont screw up again. well she started talkin to me today in CG... what a relife, seems shes been worried about me cuz ive been so out of it and depressive the last few days, heh... i got everyone worried... i hate it, so im guna keep my emotions under control for now on, if i feel any jealousy outa control im guna knock it back what ever it takes, i dont want this to happen again or anything like it. now if they start talkin again that would be nice, but i still have both as friends... and it was their choice to ditch eachother... so ill leave it to them, nothing much i can do... heh, so yeah im a bit happier now.. still a few things lingering on my mind that airnt guna fade any time soon... and only one person knows of them and i dont think anyone else will know soon... just speakin to her about them i was in tears half the time... i dont really want that to happen again... *sighs* another thing i want to friggin control, never have been able to though... just another thing to try harder at.... 4 day weekend!! biggrin whoot whoot and i got a new 5 dollar long sleeve shirt meh mom hates but everyone else likes 3nodding says "naughy" on it, but its so cute i love it! biggrin and yeah im good for now byebye
 playwithfire · Thu Nov 11, 2004 @ 03:31am · 0 Comments |
