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I saw Eric the other day, not sure if I posted this yet or not.

But yeah, I saw Eric the other day.
Eric being an ex of mine from a couple of years ago, that overlaps in the Clay and Jon eras.

I can't recall why we broke up. I think it could've been his mom, because she was a total, pyscho b***h.
Or, you know... the fact that he got a little too much into the talking about other people thing...

I dunno.
But it was odd. Seeing him, from the distance. It was the first day I worked at Party City, he came in at around 6 and I immediately hid behind the counter.
I have no idea why.
My heart was pounding. My hands were shaking with nervousness. My stomach tumbled around like my torso was a dryer.
I snuck out for my break, went over to WalMart and bought a pack of smokes, sitting outside, almost waiting for him to walk up.
But he didn't.
I worried about going back inside after my break, for fear that he might be there.
And I don't know why.

He was never abusive. He never hurt me. We never really had arguements, none that I can remember at least. He never cheated on me.
So I don't know why I reacted like that.
._.

Someday, I'd like just not to feel.
That's my aspiration.
Not to feel.
More specifically, not to care.

-_. I'm so weird.