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Dear Justin,
I do not know if you will ever read this or not, nor do I know if you will read this in it's entirety or if you will simply delete this. But I need to get this out, for myself, if that sounds selfish I am sorry. From the moment I met you I knew I would not be able to hold myself from falling in love with you, I look back and realize how stupid I truly was. I should have just left you be, you said so yourself, you are better off without me because your family hated me and therefore took it out on you. I should have begged Jessica more to give you a chance. I should have broken up with you in person and tried to work things out instead of running away like a coward. I should not have tried to talk to you so soon, with the wounds so fresh. I should have listened to you when you told me that Schuyler was just going to use me, he did, in way you'll never know. I should have stood up for you the night Thomas said you were jealous because he had me and you did not, instead of just assuming you did not care about me like that anymore. There are a lot of things I should have and did not do. But I can not take any of these things back. Just always know that I bear no ill feelings toward you and that if you should ever need me, you know where to find me. I'm sorry for everything I put you through, I just hope one day you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

heart always,
danii

p.s. Rise and rise again, until lambs become lions.