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On september 12, 2008 my grandpa passed away. From what we are all vary familiar with, Cancer.
He was 63 years old. And a very loving man. All the way to the end. We were very close...this entry is a little late, due to the healing process. And getting my dad back to shape.
There are times that i still cry for my grandfather. When i think about it, it seems...longer ago.
My grandfather was 1 of 15 children. there are only two of those 15 children still living. My grandfather was the one who showed me the bunny on the moon. My grandfather was the one who tricked me into bitting an apple with a loose tooth. Who gave me candy just because he had it. I remember, as one of my last memoreis with him, he offered me chocolate and laughed at me, telling me that " Of course you'll want the chocolate" But i refused it...Now thinking back, i only wish i had some of my grandfathers chocolate..if for the last time id be offered it. The holidays will be very hard on us this year. When i was little i would sit next to the window and wait for my grandfather to walk up the steps to my house holding gifts and candy..

Believe me when i say, that i watched my grandfather pass. That day i did not go to school..i sat by my grandfathers side with his hand in mine, and if his hands were busy holding some else's hand, i would hold his leg. As childish as it sounds. he never woke up from his sleep. But there were times he would sqeeze my hand.

Saying goodbye to my grandfather for the final time was THE hardist thing iv EVER had to do...My heart can still feel the perasure. i did'nt really get to see him, for my vision was blury from my tears. My grandpa...that was all i got to choke out before i drowned myself in my tears.

But, i can say that two weeks later, he came to visit me in my dreams...we sat down on a curb..the first thing he said was "Hows fill?" Fill is his wife. So knowing that, it did make me very happy to see him again. And i look forward to his visits.

R.I.P Grandpa..I love you.