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Ok, its 1:05 right now. The day is November 16th I believe. I just vomitted blood over the carpet. My vision is blurry, possibly from the fact that my insides are burning and my mind is racing. I outside of my house with the light shining over me and I am writing with a lap top to keep a journal.

I called the hospital and they are sending an ambulance to get me. I feel weak, and should probably stop typing, but I want my baby to see this if I don't make it. You know who you are, and I love you.

Honestly it might not be anything serious, but I still feel strongly about this. I hear sirens, and a red flashing light not to far away. My face hurts when I smile, but I can't help it. My legs are numb now, and my muscles feel heavy. My vision is going out know, and I am fading into a blackness. There is a light. Maybe this is death calling to me, or maybe its the ambulance at my house. I cannot tell anymore...