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harro everybody!
sorry about no entery yesterday, stuff happened,


i spent the day at nikkie's today, it was kinda fun =D
talked to sloan on the phone too was kinda fun =o
still not totally sure what to think of it, part of me thinks i'm being used D=
i had cookies today =D soooo good after not having cookies for soooo long ^.^;

i bought spyro for xbox today =D, and tried maplestory, definately not what i was exspecting.
it's so, low grade compared to everything else i play, even combat arms which is made by the same people =/

nothing else new to report


edit: wow kristen got online =D, looks like she finally has internet =D so maybe me and her can get back 2 chatting more and stop the whole drifting apart thing that i hate so much ><...



edit: todays events are making me self concious again and looking inwardly at myself and judging my defaults, i got into a discussion with nikkie about how no1 likes me, it seems like no1 likes me because i don't do drugs, and i don't drink very much and i'm not really into that sort of thing... i feel so old all the time like i'm in a completely different age bracket from everybody around me and because of my more adultness no1 younger then me (which is basicly all my friends) likes me.
blah being the only adult out of all my friends is hard, nobody understands me and nobody listens to me when i tell them things, and then when it comes back and bites them in the a**, no matter how many times i tell them that if they had of liste4ned to me it wouldn't have happened they still never listen to me.
god i feel so used too, all my friends just use me as a taxi or a hang out or sex, or booze, that's why i don't even classify them as friends, but for simplicity i'm calling them friends.
blah. my life is so complicated and nobdy cares/understands.
and i know that the lack of social interaction of the productive kind is making me more and more anti-social and self concious D=

sigh... emo