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In september I was diagnosed with three herniated lumbar discs, and in the process of finding those, they also found a tumor in my spine. I've been out of work since September 9th or so, and we've been surviving on my husband's income alone.

At first, things were fine. We had gotten married in August and we had nearly $500 in wedding money. But we burned that up during September alone, just making ends meet with bills. Right now we're paying rent, a car payment, utilities, food, credit bills, medical bills, and anything else that comes along, on his $9/hour 32 hours a week paychecks. It was a tight squeeze. And though it was uncomfortable, we managed. Until now.

We're currently $53.51 overdrawn on our checking account. Our credit cards are maxed out from paying whatever bills we couldn't pay in cash. I'm still out of work, and attempting to get physical therapy so I can go back, but even that's not working out. We've got rent due in two weeks, and we're already in the negative, with no way of bailing ourselves out. There won't even be a Christmas, but as far as i'm concerned that's a back burner compared to staying on top of bills.

We've asked our family for help. They're all in similar financial situations. We've asked our RL friends. Most of them still live with their parents and don't even have to work. We don't have anywhere else left to turn.

I never wanted to do this. I always thought offering customs, or anything else of the sort for real money, was greedy and gimmicky. I never even wanted to have to use gaia as a place to advertise for my jewelry shop. I never wanted to be that person. But at this point in my life, I can't help it.

I hate myself for even asking in the first place. It makes me feel like absolute s**t. I can't stand knowing that I can't take care of myself. And worse yet, is other people knowing that i'm a failure at handling my own finances. I don't know where else to turn or what to do. The only contribution I can make comes from my art, or from my jewelry making. I don't want to ask for help, but I need to. I have to. I don't have any other choice.

I've always been one to help others in need. I never imagined that i'd be on the other side of it someday, but I am. Please. If you're in a decent place financially, consider helping me out.



You can purchase handmade jewelry from my etsy shop, located HERE.

You can get information about purchasing customs from my breedable shops (On Gossamer Wings and Cedar Lane) HERE.

My paypal address is audesperodesignsltd@gmail.com if by chance, you want to just donate instead.



I thank you all for your time and for you help in advance. I never wanted to have to post something like this. I hope you'll understand, and not think any less of me for it.