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Okay, first off, I'm not mad at anyone and I understand why the people mentioned feel how they feel and why they did what they did.

I love her. There I said it. I love her and she doesn't love me and that's actually alright. It's not that she doesn't love me back that bothers me. I really expected her not to. What bothers me is the knowledge that I love her more then any one ever will or ever could. Don't get me wrong, she's an amazing girl and someone will love her very deeply and enternaly, but when they first notice her, they'll think "oh, she's pretty." and they'll ask her out without ever really knowing her as much as I do. Even if they come to know her just as much and they get along as well with her as I do, it wouldn't be the same. They would have seen her as a potential girlfriend before they ever saw her for who she really was. They won't care about her as much, I don't think anyone ever could. I guess I don't think anyone could ever be good enough for her. I don't think I'm good enough for her. I'm not sad that she doesn't love me. I'm sad that she hasn't found anyone who deserves her. I'll still be her best friend. That will never change and I'm glad our friendship hasn't really changed in light of all this. I won't be bothered if she gets a boyfriend. If they make her happy, I don't care if she's dating a complete a**. I just hope she finds someone who keeps her on cloud nine and treats her like the angel she is right now and will always be.